13 Feb Turning Down my Dream Job (be careful what you wish for!)
As most of you know it is my dream to one day open my own holistic wellness center. I have been praying to my angels to bring me a job that will support this goal and simultaneously help me grow my private clientele. I had been hoping, wishing, and manifesting the crap out of this dream. Dreaming of a job that would be the perfect next step towards my ideal image of success. I searched high and low, applied to over 25 Wellness Centers in the Charleston area, and conveniently none of them were hiring.
Two weeks later I was beating myself up and mega-stressing about the road my career path was headed down when I received a phone call from what I believed to be the premier wellness center in Charleston, SC. I remembered walking past this center my first day in Charleston and gawking at its beauty, elegance, and the calming effect it instantly had on my nerves. Over the phone, the owner asked me to meet her for coffee with no mention of potential job offer. I headed to Kudu and thought there was no way it would be a job of substance, they probably wanted a new receptionist or retail associate. The last thing I expected was a job offer to RUN the entire wellness center. I was in shock, in awe, they wanted ME? I could not imagine managing such a large and successful wellness center, this was my dream… I had literally perfectly manifested what I wanted. Be careful what you wish for!
I left the interview feeling confident and pleased having just half-accepted my dream job. Then about halfway over the Ravenel Bridge, this sudden intuitive gut-wrenching feeling had brought me to tears. I had not asked a single question about the job requirements or salary! This was a full-time job, I would have to quite my dog walking business I loved so much, quit teaching yoga to WINGS kids, cut back flexibility for my private clients, and I almost forgot I was starting graduate school soon! Talk about your eyes being too big for your stomach!
At this point in time, I created my own schedule, I had the freedom to take my Roscoe pup to the dog park on a Monday afternoon or have lunch with my boyfriend on a Thursday afternoon. Things would change tremendously if I took this job, suddenly like a bullet to the head I realized how much I had been taking for granted in my life. I was so busy worrying about where my career was headed, so busy dreaming about what was NEXT instead of what was right NOW, the wonderful life I had at this moment in time. Working 60 hours a week would hardly allow me to have a flexible life and schedule I had now with my family, my clients, my education, let alone my LIFE! No more yoga at 4:30 on Tuesdays, no trips to the Farmer’s Market on Saturday afternoon. Sure this is what I wanted, this is what I dreamed of but I was so busy dreaming I wasn’t just enjoying where I was and now I found myself sad realizing that phase of my life was over.
Well anyways, for many specific and private reasons (one being the incredibly insultingly low salary) I decided this job was actually not the right fit for me. I would have never seen this coming. I realize this was a huge lesson in my life sent to me from my angels and here is what I have learned:
- Just because things are gorgeous and beautiful does not mean they are divinely destined. No matter what the situation is intentions must be pure and positive.
2. Trust your gut about situations. There is a reason my gut wrenched and tears poured from my eyes on that ride home. My heart and intuition were saying “no” but my logical head was saying “WHY THE HELL NOT?” Trust your heart, trust your gut, don’t fight it just because the opportunity may sparkle and seem like perfection does not mean it’s true. So don’t cause anxiety for yourself by fighting your heart with your head
3. Most importantly BE PRESENT. I was so concerned with feeling “stuck” and dreaming of the future that I was not present for this amazing chapter of my life. Do not take your life for granted because it can pass in the blink of an eye. My boyfriend and I are both students and have the leisure of waking up each morning and going to the gym together, once we both get full-time jobs and potentially have kids this privilege will be no more.